Finding the Hero in Me

Do you ever wonder if you can REALLY handle what is being dealt to you?

I do!

Tomorrow is September 1st. Not a significant date for most people, but for me . . .
Exactly one year ago on this day Rusty and I started trying to get pregnant.

The definition of infertility: Having sexual relations without any barriers for 1year.

Tomorrow, I am officially infertile

Some days I am ok with that fact and others, like today, I struggle to find the hero inside myself.

That person who is strong

That person who knows what to do in every situation

That person who suffers in silence and handles what is given her

That person who never lets show the anguish she feels inside

That person who doesn't let the tears fall

That person who remembers that she is blessed and doesn't ask for more

That person who doesn't complain

That person who allows the whole in her heart to be put on the back burner

That person who smiles

Some days I can be that person, but today . . .

I can't

I know that in a few days I will be able to be that girl again and life will be good, but today I morn the lose of something I have never had.

Today I found out that another friend is pregnant, while I am VERY excited for her and her husband, I can't help but feel the jolt of my current situation.

So today I will dig deep and find the hero in myself because the people around me need her!

I NEED her!!!

I'm Back!!!

So, it has been a crazy busy and somewhat eventful summer, but . . . it's OVER!!!!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Oh well, what do ya do? So school starts back up next week and I am more than a little nervous this year. Ususally I feel pretty calm and confident, but this year I really worry because I have a special needs student in my class this year and I have never had to deal with this type of student before.

I just hope that I can continue to maintain a good classroom environment for both this special student and my other students. I am REALLY nervous so if anyone has any advice on handling this type of situation I would LOVE the help!!

I will update you all soon on my summer (since I haven't had internet all summer! Sad day :(

I'll update again soon :) :)